Curveballs
In addition to my irregular writings and ramblings here, I started daily journalling almost a year ago to help me reflect on my day to day life. When I first started I never expected how much of an impact it would have on I view myself and my interactions with the world around me. Reflecting on and improving my interactions with the people in my life has always been a struggle for me, something that has never come naturally or easily to me and can regularly make me feel like I'm missing out on deeper connections and more meaningful friendships. By journalling I have made progress in changing myself, hopefully for the better. Below is an excerpt from what I wrote today:
The curveball that caught me off guard came from moving back onto campus for my third year of living where I work. Because of a job change over the summer, I had to change accommodations from the ones I have made my home for the last two years. To say the change in amenities gave me a shock would be an understatement. My new apartment lacked much of the space and features I had grown accustom to in my last place.
Unfortunately I allowed this shock to push me into a negative mindset which led to some anger and frustration at how unfair it was. It took me a lot longer to get over the initial disappointment and start to see the positives in my new surroundings. Sure it will be cosier than what I had before, but I think this new apartment will be really helpful in my goal to find a better work/life balance, as well as my goal to get out and be more active and social. I will need to put a lot of my stuff into storage at the farm, but that also means I will have fewer distractions while I work hard to maximize my personal and professional growth this year. The message I'm trying to learn from all this is that my initial negative reactions have never helped improve anything. To continue to grow into the person I want to be, I need to find ways to bypass this initial negativity so that I can keep moving forward with my goals.
Life has an interesting way of throwing the unexpected at us, usually at a point when we are feeling the most confident. Though I like to believe that I can take what is thrown at me and keep rolling, it can take a heavy toll on my mind some days. Sometimes we need the opportunity to step back to gain new perspective, and other times we need to allow time for reality to sink in before we can see our way through the newest obstacle. Where I would like to improve is to recognize that this time or change in perspective is necessary, and to allow it to happen before I make rash decisions which can do more harm to my goals than the obstacle.
The curveball that caught me off guard came from moving back onto campus for my third year of living where I work. Because of a job change over the summer, I had to change accommodations from the ones I have made my home for the last two years. To say the change in amenities gave me a shock would be an understatement. My new apartment lacked much of the space and features I had grown accustom to in my last place.
Unfortunately I allowed this shock to push me into a negative mindset which led to some anger and frustration at how unfair it was. It took me a lot longer to get over the initial disappointment and start to see the positives in my new surroundings. Sure it will be cosier than what I had before, but I think this new apartment will be really helpful in my goal to find a better work/life balance, as well as my goal to get out and be more active and social. I will need to put a lot of my stuff into storage at the farm, but that also means I will have fewer distractions while I work hard to maximize my personal and professional growth this year. The message I'm trying to learn from all this is that my initial negative reactions have never helped improve anything. To continue to grow into the person I want to be, I need to find ways to bypass this initial negativity so that I can keep moving forward with my goals.
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